July

Oh my goodness. It's July.

JULY.

Quite possibly our daughter's birth month.

Yes, it is quite possible that she could delay her arrival until early August. Our due date is July 27th so an August birthday is not all that far fetched.

Still, there's something very momentous about the fact that today is July 1st.

Little girl. Our sweet little girl. The little girl who is quite unsettled, tossing and turning within me at this very moment. She's almost here! Her clothes are washed. I've packed her things for the hospital in case she decides to come early. This week I will be 37 weeks. I'm already 80% effaced and the Braxton Hicks contractions are in full swing.

Most nights I don't sleep very well. I just can't get comfortable. I think it's just preparation for the lack of sleep that is about to be a major part of my life :)

We're just so excited. Lately I've been having a little bit of nerves regarding labor and delivery, but the nerves are greatly outweighed by the sheer joy of knowing that I get to hold our Ellie girl so very soon!

This trimester has been hard. I've been very uncomfortable, often in pain, and experiencing all kinds of new symptoms that I had no idea were even related to pregnancy. From numbness in my hands and fingers to a constant metal taste in my mouth... even a recent occurrence where it feels like my whole back is vibrating.... (WEIRD, I KNOW), this has just been a rough trimester. On top of that, the fatigue is something I have never ever experienced before. I am EXHAUSTED all the time. I nap every day, which is good since I'm not sleeping well at night. So, if Ellie wanted to come a little earlier than her due date, I wouldn't complain too much about that :)

In the mean time, I've been trying to enjoy the little things. Long walks with my husband and my dog. Watching TV and going to lunch with friends.... all without the interruption of an infant. While I'm excited for Ellie to be my new little companion, I'm well aware that there will be days where I will miss this season of life.... the season of not being responsible for someone else at all times! So I'm just trying to "live it up" before I start a new chapter. Mommyhood.

I am going to try to blog a lot this month. Who knows if I will actually accomplish that, but I just want to document all of these thoughts and feelings in my final weeks of pregnancy and life as I know it!